Saturday, March 21, 2009

just my thoughts....

quite a day...tadi ade final presentation for my subject..and it's quite important for my cgpa.... we're so anxious bout how we'll turn out... but i think we did okay.....
and i'm suppose to have a group discussion tonight and one thing that pissed me is that it's cancelled.last minute. bcuz one member's missing. damn it. i was looking ofrward to do it kuz i can forget about it and do other things...(like study for my finals..)
urghh...sakit hati. but i try to keep my cool.... sejak2 ni ade je bende yg menyakitkan hati aku. maybe for others it may seem like it's no big deal, but for me it's still pisses me..... sometimes aku rase orang2 sekeliling aku anggap aku macam takde perasaan.. they can do anything they like and dont have to warry about waht i might feel. it's like aku ni mcm tunggul pun ade. bile aku ckp aku marah... they all said relax la... it's no biggie.. yeah right..... cube la that exact same thing happens to them, they'll be mad as hell right???
i just dont understand it.... it's like they're allowed to voice out their feelings and i'm not. bile aku voice out my feelings, i've been branded as emotional. duh... i'm only a human kay??mesti la kene ade hati dan perasaan.....

just my thoughts....

quite a day...tadi ade final presentation for my subject..and it's quite important for my cgpa.... we're so anxious bout how we'll turn out... but i think we did okay.....
and i'm suppose to have a group discussion tonight and one thing that pissed me is that it's cancelled.last minute. bcuz one member's missing. damn it. i was looking ofrward to do it kuz i can forget about it and do other things...(like study for my finals..)
urghh...sakit hati. but i try to keep my cool.... sejak2 ni ade je bende yg menyakitkan hati aku. maybe for others it may seem like it's no big deal, but for me it's still pisses me..... sometimes aku rase orang2 sekeliling aku anggap aku macam takde perasaan.. they can do anything they like and dont have to warry about waht i might feel. it's like aku ni mcm tunggul pun ade. bile aku ckp aku marah... they all said relax la... it's no biggie.. yeah right..... cube la that exact same thing happens to them, they'll be mad as hell right???
i just dont understand it.... it's like they're allowed to voice out their feelings and i'm not. bile aku voice out my feelings, i've been branded as emotional. duh... i'm only a human kay??mesti la kene ade hati dan perasaan.....

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

my friend's funny prediction...(shall i say premonition??)

my bestie told me one night, while we're having our dinner. she asked what will i do if one day my crush ask me out? i said i'll ask if his gf ade ke tak, and if his gf will get mad or not... then my bestie asked again, what will i do if he confess to me that he likes me? i said i'll make a confused face before asking "are you sure?" 
then she ask me again, will i accepts him if he ask me to be his gf? of course i laugh! that sounds ridiculous to me. all i know that boy is happy with his current gf.. my bestie ask me, consider that they (my crush and his gf ) have broken up.. jawapan aku senang je... tgk la keadaan camne.. kalau i still like him, then it's fine lah kot. kalau tak, sorry to break your heartlah jawapnye.
the funny thing is, my bestie is so convinced that what she had asked me will come true. said her instinct tell her so.. and she's very confident about it. her premonition is that one day, in 3 years time (waktu kitorang still undergraduate lg) he'll confess to me.... nasib baik kitorang kt kafe, kalau kt bilik dah jth katil kot aku gelak....
i know my bestie loves me and wants the best for me and wants me to be happy, tapi there's no need for her to have that kind of prediction. it's just funny... semms not possible at all to me... tapi who knows what will happen in the future. mane la tau kn.....
and that premonition leads us to do something ridiculous last night. we're cyber-stalking someone... i mean not actually cyber-stalking.. let's just say kitoran buat sikit edisi siasat pasal my crush's fs page.. (again!!).. i was so convinced that they're really have something going on but my besties think otherwise. so we're doing our investigation and found no evidence about my belief (that they have something). my besties said that they're just bestfriends or kakak angkat-adik angkat kinda relationship (kuz she's older than him...).....
anyway, i dont wanna think about all that stuff right now... kuz i've got many things to think!!!
cost management, leadership, semue lahh!!!! 
hope i'm still alive and sane by the time i've got time to post somethnig here....

my friend's funny prediction...(shall i say premonition??)

my bestie told me one night, while we're having our dinner. she asked what will i do if one day my crush ask me out? i said i'll ask if his gf ade ke tak, and if his gf will get mad or not... then my bestie asked again, what will i do if he confess to me that he likes me? i said i'll make a confused face before asking "are you sure?" 
then she ask me again, will i accepts him if he ask me to be his gf? of course i laugh! that sounds ridiculous to me. all i know that boy is happy with his current gf.. my bestie ask me, consider that they (my crush and his gf ) have broken up.. jawapan aku senang je... tgk la keadaan camne.. kalau i still like him, then it's fine lah kot. kalau tak, sorry to break your heartlah jawapnye.
the funny thing is, my bestie is so convinced that what she had asked me will come true. said her instinct tell her so.. and she's very confident about it. her premonition is that one day, in 3 years time (waktu kitorang still undergraduate lg) he'll confess to me.... nasib baik kitorang kt kafe, kalau kt bilik dah jth katil kot aku gelak....
i know my bestie loves me and wants the best for me and wants me to be happy, tapi there's no need for her to have that kind of prediction. it's just funny... semms not possible at all to me... tapi who knows what will happen in the future. mane la tau kn.....
and that premonition leads us to do something ridiculous last night. we're cyber-stalking someone... i mean not actually cyber-stalking.. let's just say kitoran buat sikit edisi siasat pasal my crush's fs page.. (again!!).. i was so convinced that they're really have something going on but my besties think otherwise. so we're doing our investigation and found no evidence about my belief (that they have something). my besties said that they're just bestfriends or kakak angkat-adik angkat kinda relationship (kuz she's older than him...).....
anyway, i dont wanna think about all that stuff right now... kuz i've got many things to think!!!
cost management, leadership, semue lahh!!!! 
hope i'm still alive and sane by the time i've got time to post somethnig here....

Monday, March 16, 2009

Life's like a tv drama......

baru2 ni, there's a quite close friend of mine mengadu about her probs. her former bestfriend from matriculation has been spreading rumors and bad stories about her.... she's been having problems with my friend's sis for some times now, and they havent been good ever since.
hearing her stories make me think...wow...it's like some kind of drama i see on tv...complete dgn rumors, betrayal stories..... people taking sides... pergh... nasib baik la aku ni acocunting students and xde bakat langsung dlm film-making or script-writing.... kalo tak mesti dah lame aku wat film based on this true stories....
but i learnt some lessons from my friend's experience.....when we faced some hardships..that's the time we'll know our true friends are....those who stick with you no matters what kind of bad stories they heard about you...no matter how much people said bad things about you...they still believe in you.. and we'll know who's just friends when we're havent got any problems...kawan time senang je....
another lessons i learnt is jgn panik and acting rash... what i mean is that bile someone spread bad rumors about you..and the rumors are definitely not true at all.... just let them be. i mean kalau kite tak salah tak payah la nak serang orang yg spread rumors tu... it makes us looks like the guilty one.macam rumors tu is true....just let it be.bile orang dah penat buat cerite pasal kite diorang akan berhenti.
i wonder... kenape mesti nk bermusuh2an dgn kawan sendiri.they used to be classmates, even room mates....tak rase sayang ke bile friendship yg dah brape thn jd sie2 cmtu je..??
that makes me wanna resolve something...i'll try my best to appreciate my friendship with my friends...and be there for them, susah dan senang..and hope that they'll do the same for me.

Life's like a tv drama......

baru2 ni, there's a quite close friend of mine mengadu about her probs. her former bestfriend from matriculation has been spreading rumors and bad stories about her.... she's been having problems with my friend's sis for some times now, and they havent been good ever since.
hearing her stories make me think...wow...it's like some kind of drama i see on tv...complete dgn rumors, betrayal stories..... people taking sides... pergh... nasib baik la aku ni acocunting students and xde bakat langsung dlm film-making or script-writing.... kalo tak mesti dah lame aku wat film based on this true stories....
but i learnt some lessons from my friend's experience.....when we faced some hardships..that's the time we'll know our true friends are....those who stick with you no matters what kind of bad stories they heard about you...no matter how much people said bad things about you...they still believe in you.. and we'll know who's just friends when we're havent got any problems...kawan time senang je....
another lessons i learnt is jgn panik and acting rash... what i mean is that bile someone spread bad rumors about you..and the rumors are definitely not true at all.... just let them be. i mean kalau kite tak salah tak payah la nak serang orang yg spread rumors tu... it makes us looks like the guilty one.macam rumors tu is true....just let it be.bile orang dah penat buat cerite pasal kite diorang akan berhenti.
i wonder... kenape mesti nk bermusuh2an dgn kawan sendiri.they used to be classmates, even room mates....tak rase sayang ke bile friendship yg dah brape thn jd sie2 cmtu je..??
that makes me wanna resolve something...i'll try my best to appreciate my friendship with my friends...and be there for them, susah dan senang..and hope that they'll do the same for me.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

cyberstalking????

i did something i think i shouldnt do...... though it's not ethically and morally wrong but i still think it's not good for me..... what i did is i view my crush's gf fs page. it sounds harmless, isn't it? but after doing it i feel horrible. damn i feel jealous. i shouldnt be jealous. she's his gf she can be lovey dovey to him..... huhuhuhuu...... tp aku still rase cemburu. i need to get over him,soon.
actually, i've tried every possible ways i could think of. dah try sibukkan diri dgn things yg takde kaitan dgn that guy... dah try isi mase lapang dgn things i really like... i've even try to like other guy tapi.....
now i decide to just let go.takyah pikir pape. numb my feelings for him. let time heals my wounds. open up my mind to new things, new possibilities. maybe i'll find someone better this time..... 

cyberstalking????

i did something i think i shouldnt do...... though it's not ethically and morally wrong but i still think it's not good for me..... what i did is i view my crush's gf fs page. it sounds harmless, isn't it? but after doing it i feel horrible. damn i feel jealous. i shouldnt be jealous. she's his gf she can be lovey dovey to him..... huhuhuhuu...... tp aku still rase cemburu. i need to get over him,soon.
actually, i've tried every possible ways i could think of. dah try sibukkan diri dgn things yg takde kaitan dgn that guy... dah try isi mase lapang dgn things i really like... i've even try to like other guy tapi.....
now i decide to just let go.takyah pikir pape. numb my feelings for him. let time heals my wounds. open up my mind to new things, new possibilities. maybe i'll find someone better this time..... 

Sunday, March 8, 2009

just moved.....

haha....my feelings r mixed right now.... i'm moving to a new place. excited tapi rase sedih plak tinggalkn tempat aku m'besar. anxious abt changes in my life.... we've learn new things here.. learn to adapt to the new environment here. but every clouds has silver linings, setiap ape yg b'laku pasti ade hikmahnye... maybe something good will come out from our move here.
i've just realize, mase tgh packing barang  that my room was a junkyard. almost everything ade dalam bilik aku.. from cutleries to sandals even a dead cockroach!! pening aku nk kemas. in the end aku divide all my thing into throw away bags and keep it bags. setel kerje. hehehe.....
esok satu lagi kerje menanti. kemas balik brg2...huhuu... i hate it. i'm a naturally messy person no matter how much effort i take, me and my things still in a mess... what to do??
anyway, since there's a lot of thing to do... i decided to take one step at a time. maybe start susun furniture, then, wardrobe...books..... and whatever that needs my attention.

just moved.....

haha....my feelings r mixed right now.... i'm moving to a new place. excited tapi rase sedih plak tinggalkn tempat aku m'besar. anxious abt changes in my life.... we've learn new things here.. learn to adapt to the new environment here. but every clouds has silver linings, setiap ape yg b'laku pasti ade hikmahnye... maybe something good will come out from our move here.
i've just realize, mase tgh packing barang  that my room was a junkyard. almost everything ade dalam bilik aku.. from cutleries to sandals even a dead cockroach!! pening aku nk kemas. in the end aku divide all my thing into throw away bags and keep it bags. setel kerje. hehehe.....
esok satu lagi kerje menanti. kemas balik brg2...huhuu... i hate it. i'm a naturally messy person no matter how much effort i take, me and my things still in a mess... what to do??
anyway, since there's a lot of thing to do... i decided to take one step at a time. maybe start susun furniture, then, wardrobe...books..... and whatever that needs my attention.

Friday, March 6, 2009

public transportation.......

public transportation..something that are essential for me but at the same time i just dreaded it..
especially bas. tak faham betul dgn bus service kt malaysia ni. diorang takde jadual perjalanan ke ape? jalan ikut suka hati je.... sempat minum2 sedangkan berbaris2 orang tunggu nak naik bas.. ceh... and another thing i really want to complain.... malaysians really lose their manners when boarding public transportation. pintu bas terbukak je berpusu2 org berebut nak naik.. chill man...! bas kosong lg... kalau pun x dpt naik, kt belakang tu berlambak bas lagi. lagi2 aku sakit hati dengan manusia2 yg mude remaja gagah perkasa ni... tak gentleman langsung. ade ke patut berebut naik bas dengan makcik2 tue, dengan kanak2, dengan budak2 pompuan?? langsung tak gagah aku tengok. selfish btol aku tengok.
if i wanna have a political career, i will want to become tansportation minister. aku nak rombak balik sistem pengangkutan kt m'sia.... biar jd lebih efisien. buat line ketapi laju dari JB ke perlis... macam line shinkansen kat jepun nun. jadi takyah la susah2 nak tggu bas yang tak gerak2 or berebut2 naik bas sampai hampir mati lemas tersepit kene himpit orang ke.........
i really do hope public transport in malaysia will improve....

public transportation.......

public transportation..something that are essential for me but at the same time i just dreaded it..
especially bas. tak faham betul dgn bus service kt malaysia ni. diorang takde jadual perjalanan ke ape? jalan ikut suka hati je.... sempat minum2 sedangkan berbaris2 orang tunggu nak naik bas.. ceh... and another thing i really want to complain.... malaysians really lose their manners when boarding public transportation. pintu bas terbukak je berpusu2 org berebut nak naik.. chill man...! bas kosong lg... kalau pun x dpt naik, kt belakang tu berlambak bas lagi. lagi2 aku sakit hati dengan manusia2 yg mude remaja gagah perkasa ni... tak gentleman langsung. ade ke patut berebut naik bas dengan makcik2 tue, dengan kanak2, dengan budak2 pompuan?? langsung tak gagah aku tengok. selfish btol aku tengok.
if i wanna have a political career, i will want to become tansportation minister. aku nak rombak balik sistem pengangkutan kt m'sia.... biar jd lebih efisien. buat line ketapi laju dari JB ke perlis... macam line shinkansen kat jepun nun. jadi takyah la susah2 nak tggu bas yang tak gerak2 or berebut2 naik bas sampai hampir mati lemas tersepit kene himpit orang ke.........
i really do hope public transport in malaysia will improve....

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

what a busy week.....

this time of the sem dah datang..... the busy weeks. it's been a very damn busy 3 weeks for me now. cant wait for this week to end. i'm just wondering..... kenape bile kite xde kerje.. kite langsung takde kerje? bile satu kerje masuk je, yg lain2 pun ikut gak. it's like a domino effect. 1 work leads to another... and once kite dah busy, everyday after will be busy too. why oh why?

what a busy week.....

this time of the sem dah datang..... the busy weeks. it's been a very damn busy 3 weeks for me now. cant wait for this week to end. i'm just wondering..... kenape bile kite xde kerje.. kite langsung takde kerje? bile satu kerje masuk je, yg lain2 pun ikut gak. it's like a domino effect. 1 work leads to another... and once kite dah busy, everyday after will be busy too. why oh why?