Sunday, November 15, 2009

cuti

cuti olredi!!!
nk buat ape kt rumah?
mostly ber internet, tv and lepak dgn adik2.
kadang2 buat keje rumah.... [bile mak dah melontarkan peluru dari mulut die]
kalau bernasib baik, jalan2 la.... not much.
cuti lame pn boring.
2 weeks is enough i think.
lame2 nnt mak bosan dgn aku, aku bosan kt rumah...
hehe

cuti

cuti olredi!!!
nk buat ape kt rumah?
mostly ber internet, tv and lepak dgn adik2.
kadang2 buat keje rumah.... [bile mak dah melontarkan peluru dari mulut die]
kalau bernasib baik, jalan2 la.... not much.
cuti lame pn boring.
2 weeks is enough i think.
lame2 nnt mak bosan dgn aku, aku bosan kt rumah...
hehe

Monday, October 26, 2009

just...

cant sleep tonite.
so i write..
got nothing specific in my mind right now.
so i just blab.

first on why i cant sleep.
kuz i deliberately drink nescafe.
i knew that i cant sleep when i drink it
but i still want to.
and i knew nescafe hv some side effects on me.
lepas minum mesti badan berangin.
perut masuk angin and cepat lapar.
kalau tak makan b4 minum nescafe,
i will be starve and tangan menggigil.
but still i love nescafe.
i dont know why....
degil betul.

haha.
sok ade kuiz.
and i've studied halfway only.
takde mood la nk belajar.
i'm good at procrastinating.
really good.
my lecturer said people who procrastinate are super optimistic people.
is it?
maybe....is it a good thing?
he said no.... but i dont know.
some things hv their pros and cons i guess.

i'm googling and searching for bleach wallpapers.
dont exactly find what i'm looking for,
but i just stick around.
maybe something good will come out.
nk carik more espada pics...
and also vaizaard.
haha.
crazy abt grimmjaw and kensei....
wonder if grimm still alive?

just...

cant sleep tonite.
so i write..
got nothing specific in my mind right now.
so i just blab.

first on why i cant sleep.
kuz i deliberately drink nescafe.
i knew that i cant sleep when i drink it
but i still want to.
and i knew nescafe hv some side effects on me.
lepas minum mesti badan berangin.
perut masuk angin and cepat lapar.
kalau tak makan b4 minum nescafe,
i will be starve and tangan menggigil.
but still i love nescafe.
i dont know why....
degil betul.

haha.
sok ade kuiz.
and i've studied halfway only.
takde mood la nk belajar.
i'm good at procrastinating.
really good.
my lecturer said people who procrastinate are super optimistic people.
is it?
maybe....is it a good thing?
he said no.... but i dont know.
some things hv their pros and cons i guess.

i'm googling and searching for bleach wallpapers.
dont exactly find what i'm looking for,
but i just stick around.
maybe something good will come out.
nk carik more espada pics...
and also vaizaard.
haha.
crazy abt grimmjaw and kensei....
wonder if grimm still alive?

Sunday, October 25, 2009

think b4 doing smthing

hehe...
current events in my life makes me smile..
senyuman jahat.

got a text from my EX-bestie.
asking me to go out wif her....
i was baffled.
what in the hell did she wants me to hang out wif her....
after she told me that she didnt need me and all that crap i didnt care to remember.
heh.
and all of a sudden...
makes me laugh really.
something to learn from this.
do not ever do something, or say something to someone you're close with
without thinking.
especially if you're in a bad mood... angry,sad,annoyed or anything.
just keep whatever you want to say to yourself first,
and think abt the consequences of those things you're abt to say/do
kuz if you just blurt it out without thinking
it may come back to you..

it seems to me that that EX-bestie
is licking her own spit (gross but it's appropriate in this case)
haha
it seems to me that she wants me back as her friends.
and it's not like i'm being unforgiving and vengeful person
but it's hard to be friends wif someone who told you she'd rather be friends wif someone else.
it's kinda weird to me...
even talking to her seems weird to me.
it's worse than talking to someone you just meet.

yeahh..
it seems impossible for me to be close to her again...
even being friends wif her again is unimaginable to me.
i've been trying to avoid her whenever i can.
it's just weird.
we used to be so close, everywhere together...
and all of the sudden, we're not together anymore.
some people ask..
and thankfully (and incidentally) our classes are not the same this semester.
so i used that as an excuse.
some people who knows us or more observant will understand why.

seriously.....
it seems that she's been making some efforts to make up with us,
discreetly (and no apologies apparently,which we are expecting..)
makes me think....
maybe her so called 'other' friends are not as good as us...
or she just missed us...
kuz we used to be like siblings and all that...
and we share almost everything...
she lost a few confidantes by uttering those words.
and now,she wants us back.
and she might not get us back now.

think b4 doing smthing

hehe...
current events in my life makes me smile..
senyuman jahat.

got a text from my EX-bestie.
asking me to go out wif her....
i was baffled.
what in the hell did she wants me to hang out wif her....
after she told me that she didnt need me and all that crap i didnt care to remember.
heh.
and all of a sudden...
makes me laugh really.
something to learn from this.
do not ever do something, or say something to someone you're close with
without thinking.
especially if you're in a bad mood... angry,sad,annoyed or anything.
just keep whatever you want to say to yourself first,
and think abt the consequences of those things you're abt to say/do
kuz if you just blurt it out without thinking
it may come back to you..

it seems to me that that EX-bestie
is licking her own spit (gross but it's appropriate in this case)
haha
it seems to me that she wants me back as her friends.
and it's not like i'm being unforgiving and vengeful person
but it's hard to be friends wif someone who told you she'd rather be friends wif someone else.
it's kinda weird to me...
even talking to her seems weird to me.
it's worse than talking to someone you just meet.

yeahh..
it seems impossible for me to be close to her again...
even being friends wif her again is unimaginable to me.
i've been trying to avoid her whenever i can.
it's just weird.
we used to be so close, everywhere together...
and all of the sudden, we're not together anymore.
some people ask..
and thankfully (and incidentally) our classes are not the same this semester.
so i used that as an excuse.
some people who knows us or more observant will understand why.

seriously.....
it seems that she's been making some efforts to make up with us,
discreetly (and no apologies apparently,which we are expecting..)
makes me think....
maybe her so called 'other' friends are not as good as us...
or she just missed us...
kuz we used to be like siblings and all that...
and we share almost everything...
she lost a few confidantes by uttering those words.
and now,she wants us back.
and she might not get us back now.

Friday, October 23, 2009

HyDe-sama

heeeeeeee..............
sy sgt2 menyukai lelaki yg dlm gmbr diatas.
sebabnye........
die tersangatlah comel,bergaye,stylo,hensem,dan yg sewaktu dgnnye.
juge suke tgk bile die menyanyi,
tak kire la live performance ke @ dlm video klip...
tersangatlah menarik perhatian dan minat sy....
live performance die best.
suare btul2 cm dlm album.
one thing i like when watching his videos (apart from his singing and kadang2 dancing yg weird and eccentric )
is his hair.
cool gile kot hairstyle die.
one day i'll do my hair just like his dlm pv love addict.

i see him perfect as a vampire.
i mean....
he's already into that kinda stuff...
he played a vampire in moonchild.
and his side project, vamps (obviously.... from vampire)
dgn vid love addict yg die pkai contact lens merah and fake fangs tu...
mmg perfect la die jadi vampire.
hyde, prince of darkness..hehehe.....

one more thing...
i dont know why,
tapi i see hyde as someone who is like....
watak dlm manga @ anime....
seriously...
he looks just like some handsome cool guys from some shoujo manga...
hehehe..
his wife and kids are soooooo...lucky.

HyDe-sama

heeeeeeee..............
sy sgt2 menyukai lelaki yg dlm gmbr diatas.
sebabnye........
die tersangatlah comel,bergaye,stylo,hensem,dan yg sewaktu dgnnye.
juge suke tgk bile die menyanyi,
tak kire la live performance ke @ dlm video klip...
tersangatlah menarik perhatian dan minat sy....
live performance die best.
suare btul2 cm dlm album.
one thing i like when watching his videos (apart from his singing and kadang2 dancing yg weird and eccentric )
is his hair.
cool gile kot hairstyle die.
one day i'll do my hair just like his dlm pv love addict.

i see him perfect as a vampire.
i mean....
he's already into that kinda stuff...
he played a vampire in moonchild.
and his side project, vamps (obviously.... from vampire)
dgn vid love addict yg die pkai contact lens merah and fake fangs tu...
mmg perfect la die jadi vampire.
hyde, prince of darkness..hehehe.....

one more thing...
i dont know why,
tapi i see hyde as someone who is like....
watak dlm manga @ anime....
seriously...
he looks just like some handsome cool guys from some shoujo manga...
hehehe..
his wife and kids are soooooo...lucky.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

mad.....again

sy marah lg....
sbb sy rase nk marah...
sbb sy rase sy patut marah.
tak kisah la kalau org lain rase sy tak patut marha.
still sy nk marah gk.
sukati sy la nk marah ke tak.
sy pun manusie gk.
manusie ade perasaan...
ade hak nk rase gembire,sedih,marah...
jadi secare automatik sy pun ade hak utk marah.
jadi sy marah lah.

tapi sy penat lps marah.
sbb tu sy tak suke marah....
sy jarang marah pun.
kt sekolah dulu, sy sgt jarang marah sampai bile sy nk marah je..
kawan2 sy pujuk sy jgn marah.
sbb diorang takut sy marah.
org yg jarang marah, bile marah menakutkan.
agknye sy marah bg diorang menakutkan kot....
tak tau lah.....

tp sekarang sy selalu la gk marah.
makin dewase ni byk pulak bende yg blh buat sy marah.
tapi biasenye sy marah kejap je....
pastu okey dahhh...
tapi hari ni mcm nk marah lame sikit.
maybe 1 malam kot sy nk marah....
sbb sy tertekan gk sekarang....
dan juge sy nk salahkan hormon sy yg tak stabil utk kemarahan sy ni

sy rase sy berhak utk marah,
tapi sy taktau la ape org lain rase bile sy marah....
mereke kate sy ni mcm kurang perasaan sikit...
sikit je la kot.

sekarang sy dah sakit kepale sbb marah...
sy marah sgt sampai sy menangis.
hebat gk la sy marah kali ni
mungkin bg org sbb sy marah kali ni sgt remeh...
mcm mengade2 pulak nk marah gile2 sbb hal kecik..
tetapi...........
bile sbb yg kecik tu + hormon sy yg tak stabil + perasaan tertekan sy sbb nk exam + perasaan sy yg mmg ade selame ni yg mengatakan sy ni kurang berharge (sy rase sy ade inferiority complex) + sy suke simpan dlm hati je ape yg sy rase + sakit perut sbb lapar dan lain2 sebab = kemarahan yg teramat sgt yg sy rase sekarang.

adakah kemarahan sy blh dijustifiedkan?
ataupun mmg sy suke marah tak tentu pasal?
demmmmmmm.... sy tak suke marah.
jadi tolonglah kawan2 sy jgn la buat sy marah sgt2............
sy penat.

mad.....again

sy marah lg....
sbb sy rase nk marah...
sbb sy rase sy patut marah.
tak kisah la kalau org lain rase sy tak patut marha.
still sy nk marah gk.
sukati sy la nk marah ke tak.
sy pun manusie gk.
manusie ade perasaan...
ade hak nk rase gembire,sedih,marah...
jadi secare automatik sy pun ade hak utk marah.
jadi sy marah lah.

tapi sy penat lps marah.
sbb tu sy tak suke marah....
sy jarang marah pun.
kt sekolah dulu, sy sgt jarang marah sampai bile sy nk marah je..
kawan2 sy pujuk sy jgn marah.
sbb diorang takut sy marah.
org yg jarang marah, bile marah menakutkan.
agknye sy marah bg diorang menakutkan kot....
tak tau lah.....

tp sekarang sy selalu la gk marah.
makin dewase ni byk pulak bende yg blh buat sy marah.
tapi biasenye sy marah kejap je....
pastu okey dahhh...
tapi hari ni mcm nk marah lame sikit.
maybe 1 malam kot sy nk marah....
sbb sy tertekan gk sekarang....
dan juge sy nk salahkan hormon sy yg tak stabil utk kemarahan sy ni

sy rase sy berhak utk marah,
tapi sy taktau la ape org lain rase bile sy marah....
mereke kate sy ni mcm kurang perasaan sikit...
sikit je la kot.

sekarang sy dah sakit kepale sbb marah...
sy marah sgt sampai sy menangis.
hebat gk la sy marah kali ni
mungkin bg org sbb sy marah kali ni sgt remeh...
mcm mengade2 pulak nk marah gile2 sbb hal kecik..
tetapi...........
bile sbb yg kecik tu + hormon sy yg tak stabil + perasaan tertekan sy sbb nk exam + perasaan sy yg mmg ade selame ni yg mengatakan sy ni kurang berharge (sy rase sy ade inferiority complex) + sy suke simpan dlm hati je ape yg sy rase + sakit perut sbb lapar dan lain2 sebab = kemarahan yg teramat sgt yg sy rase sekarang.

adakah kemarahan sy blh dijustifiedkan?
ataupun mmg sy suke marah tak tentu pasal?
demmmmmmm.... sy tak suke marah.
jadi tolonglah kawan2 sy jgn la buat sy marah sgt2............
sy penat.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

changes....

lots of changes happen around the world everyday....
2 of my frenz get together today *yeay!!!*
and my nenek went to live with my uncle for a change, once in a while...

and also.....
this damn thing happen!!!
aku nk transfer lagu dr laptop ke phone thru bluetooth....
and suddenly........
suddenly.......
tak blh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sbb tetibe die mintak pass code utk bluetooth!!!
demmmmm!!!!!
mane la aku ingat!!
tak tau pon....
cane nk bluetooth ni????
ni yg nk mengamuk ni!!!
suke2 die je nk change setting.
b4 this takde la prosedur pelik2 cani...
byk lagi bende aku kene ingat selain pass code utk bluetooth.
issshhhhhhhhh

ade ke..
dahla internet connection asyik nk menyakitkan hati aku je.
slow mcm kure2 tak makan seminggu....
siput tuuttt pun lg laju...
geram sungguh.......

changes....

lots of changes happen around the world everyday....
2 of my frenz get together today *yeay!!!*
and my nenek went to live with my uncle for a change, once in a while...

and also.....
this damn thing happen!!!
aku nk transfer lagu dr laptop ke phone thru bluetooth....
and suddenly........
suddenly.......
tak blh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sbb tetibe die mintak pass code utk bluetooth!!!
demmmmm!!!!!
mane la aku ingat!!
tak tau pon....
cane nk bluetooth ni????
ni yg nk mengamuk ni!!!
suke2 die je nk change setting.
b4 this takde la prosedur pelik2 cani...
byk lagi bende aku kene ingat selain pass code utk bluetooth.
issshhhhhhhhh

ade ke..
dahla internet connection asyik nk menyakitkan hati aku je.
slow mcm kure2 tak makan seminggu....
siput tuuttt pun lg laju...
geram sungguh.......

Monday, October 12, 2009

nearing the end of the semester
byk kerje...
assignment...
presentations...
quizzes...
tests...
and even a midterm!!!
ok!!
berusaha!!!
nearing the end of the semester
byk kerje...
assignment...
presentations...
quizzes...
tests...
and even a midterm!!!
ok!!
berusaha!!!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

maD

sy marah...
sy taktau sy marah dgn siape....
tp sy marah.

feel like they're taking me for granted.
carik aku bile diperlukan je.
when they want company to eat kt kafe...
when they want sum1 to walk to pasar mlm wif them
when they hv to go to meetings and tak kenal sesiape....
when they want to do sumthing tp takde kwn nk buat bende tu.

sumtimes i'm thinking,
semue bende yg diorg ajak aku buat...
all that offers, outings, lunches & dinners...
are that really kuz they want me 2b there?
or just merely kuz i'm always free and they need sum1 for company?

and bile i'm alone...and ajak diorang do sumthing,
most of the time it's rejected.
typical.
expected.
'inferior'ing myself more.
rase mcm i'm worthless.
mcm they all with me kuz i'm the convenient one.
not kuz they really want me.

pathetic kan?
damn btol....
being adults r no fun.
being negative is painful.
not caring is less pain.

maD

sy marah...
sy taktau sy marah dgn siape....
tp sy marah.

feel like they're taking me for granted.
carik aku bile diperlukan je.
when they want company to eat kt kafe...
when they want sum1 to walk to pasar mlm wif them
when they hv to go to meetings and tak kenal sesiape....
when they want to do sumthing tp takde kwn nk buat bende tu.

sumtimes i'm thinking,
semue bende yg diorg ajak aku buat...
all that offers, outings, lunches & dinners...
are that really kuz they want me 2b there?
or just merely kuz i'm always free and they need sum1 for company?

and bile i'm alone...and ajak diorang do sumthing,
most of the time it's rejected.
typical.
expected.
'inferior'ing myself more.
rase mcm i'm worthless.
mcm they all with me kuz i'm the convenient one.
not kuz they really want me.

pathetic kan?
damn btol....
being adults r no fun.
being negative is painful.
not caring is less pain.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

NeW DisCoVeRy....

he... just discover a new side of me...
a new shopaholic me....
an hour and a half at klcc and half my money is gone....
on books... and some hair clips..
huhuuu...
tu baru usha kasut, tak bli lg....
too much money to spend on a day....
never mind...
i'll come back wif a revenge.

and terpakse ikat perut for a few days sbb nk save duit.
pathetic isn't it?
and that's not all!!!
i'm addicted to internet.!!
can't live without going online, even for a day.
suffice to say internet completes my life.
(my sis will say, tu la takder pakwe... kan dah ketagih internet....)
suke hati la...internet ni aku byr sendiri ape.. (my answer to her nnt =D)

ade lagi.....
newest addiction.
online shopping....huhuhuuu (another way to lessen my bank account )
setakat ni dah bli a few clothes... a purse and a bag (otw)... and tempted to buy more...
those blogs are truly addictive (and dangerous for my money too)
and it is way easier to shop online...
takyah g siap2, tunggu bas yg selalu lmbt... bersesak2 kt mall and all that.
just go on9 and surf....

now i need to curb my addiction sblm aku terkosongkan akaun aku
(nk tggu scholarship msk a long way to go, mati kebuluranlah aku sblm tu...)
ngehhh...

gotta go browsing some more......

NeW DisCoVeRy....

he... just discover a new side of me...
a new shopaholic me....
an hour and a half at klcc and half my money is gone....
on books... and some hair clips..
huhuuu...
tu baru usha kasut, tak bli lg....
too much money to spend on a day....
never mind...
i'll come back wif a revenge.

and terpakse ikat perut for a few days sbb nk save duit.
pathetic isn't it?
and that's not all!!!
i'm addicted to internet.!!
can't live without going online, even for a day.
suffice to say internet completes my life.
(my sis will say, tu la takder pakwe... kan dah ketagih internet....)
suke hati la...internet ni aku byr sendiri ape.. (my answer to her nnt =D)

ade lagi.....
newest addiction.
online shopping....huhuhuuu (another way to lessen my bank account )
setakat ni dah bli a few clothes... a purse and a bag (otw)... and tempted to buy more...
those blogs are truly addictive (and dangerous for my money too)
and it is way easier to shop online...
takyah g siap2, tunggu bas yg selalu lmbt... bersesak2 kt mall and all that.
just go on9 and surf....

now i need to curb my addiction sblm aku terkosongkan akaun aku
(nk tggu scholarship msk a long way to go, mati kebuluranlah aku sblm tu...)
ngehhh...

gotta go browsing some more......

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

my wishlist...

even though it's only october... takde sebarang perayaan (raye dah lepas) befday pun dah lepas... still i wanna update my wishlist for now..

1) digicam. i dun like my photos 2b taken, but i would like to capture unforgettable and sweet moments happening around me.. (mebbe some cuter guys on the street... =D)
2) sony psp. donno lah. i really gotta hv that. still torn btwn psp 3000 or psp go... still thinking abt it......
3) external hdd... my laptop's hard disk is running out of space...!!!
4) sneakers... saw a pair of cute nike dlm newspaper ad... nk bli.....huhu!!!
5) faster internet connection. mostly of the time, my connection is okay lah... but many times it is so slow it's killing me just to wait.... (to think i'm such an internet addict...)
6) less assignment.... and easier exams. well, i'm no genius!!

well...
i think it's enough for now.....
just giving me time to tick some things off from the wishlist - before adding new ones (yeay!!)

my wishlist...

even though it's only october... takde sebarang perayaan (raye dah lepas) befday pun dah lepas... still i wanna update my wishlist for now..

1) digicam. i dun like my photos 2b taken, but i would like to capture unforgettable and sweet moments happening around me.. (mebbe some cuter guys on the street... =D)
2) sony psp. donno lah. i really gotta hv that. still torn btwn psp 3000 or psp go... still thinking abt it......
3) external hdd... my laptop's hard disk is running out of space...!!!
4) sneakers... saw a pair of cute nike dlm newspaper ad... nk bli.....huhu!!!
5) faster internet connection. mostly of the time, my connection is okay lah... but many times it is so slow it's killing me just to wait.... (to think i'm such an internet addict...)
6) less assignment.... and easier exams. well, i'm no genius!!

well...
i think it's enough for now.....
just giving me time to tick some things off from the wishlist - before adding new ones (yeay!!)

Saturday, August 1, 2009

my discovery...

these couple of weeks, i've been discovering great mangas online... i dont know if it's really great or it's just me, but i really fee these mangas are best. serius best...
the first one is bloody monday by Ryuumon Ryo and Megumi Kouji. cite yg agk kool, boleh gk la nk banding dgn rose hip zero (walaupun rose hip zero lagi cool dr bloody monday). this manga is about a high school hacker genius yg terlibat dgn satu konspirasi yg berniat nak menyebarkan some sort of biological weapon berupe virus yg berbahaye kt jepun. peh!!! action gile la cite ni. tapi aku still tak habis bace lg... take it slow sbb this manga is still ongoing... main character fujimaru takagi, nampak je cm normal high school kid, tapi he's actually falcon, the genius hacker. gile genius la.. semue bende pun die blh hack (wish i could do like that..cool...) and he has to save his father and also japan from terrorism with his genius ability.
another story yg aku tabik this week is perfect girl evolution. kelakar gile citer ni. tells about a girl who didnt keep herself clean and presentable, didnt care a bit about her appearance and love all that dark,horror, creepy, gothic things. and her aunt ask 4 very handsome men (she called them the radiant beings...) to change her into a real lady. kelakar sungguh adventure mamat2 4 ekor ni nk mengubah minah ni jadi perempuan sejati. dah la perempuan ni creepy gile, alergik dgn lelaki hensem laknye tu. a very entertaining read i must say....

my discovery...

these couple of weeks, i've been discovering great mangas online... i dont know if it's really great or it's just me, but i really fee these mangas are best. serius best...
the first one is bloody monday by Ryuumon Ryo and Megumi Kouji. cite yg agk kool, boleh gk la nk banding dgn rose hip zero (walaupun rose hip zero lagi cool dr bloody monday). this manga is about a high school hacker genius yg terlibat dgn satu konspirasi yg berniat nak menyebarkan some sort of biological weapon berupe virus yg berbahaye kt jepun. peh!!! action gile la cite ni. tapi aku still tak habis bace lg... take it slow sbb this manga is still ongoing... main character fujimaru takagi, nampak je cm normal high school kid, tapi he's actually falcon, the genius hacker. gile genius la.. semue bende pun die blh hack (wish i could do like that..cool...) and he has to save his father and also japan from terrorism with his genius ability.
another story yg aku tabik this week is perfect girl evolution. kelakar gile citer ni. tells about a girl who didnt keep herself clean and presentable, didnt care a bit about her appearance and love all that dark,horror, creepy, gothic things. and her aunt ask 4 very handsome men (she called them the radiant beings...) to change her into a real lady. kelakar sungguh adventure mamat2 4 ekor ni nk mengubah minah ni jadi perempuan sejati. dah la perempuan ni creepy gile, alergik dgn lelaki hensem laknye tu. a very entertaining read i must say....

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

sakit hati....

macam mane kite nak cakap kt seseorang tu yg kite sakit hati dgn die?
a) cakap direct dgn die.. "weh, aku sakit hati dgn ko la sekarang.."
b) cakap tak direct.. bagi hint kt orang tu yg kite tgh sakit hati dgn die...

which one is better? cakap direct ke indirect? adakah kalau kite cakap direct kt orang tu akan menyakitkan hati die balik? mak saye selalu pesan, treat orang same macam kite nk orang treat kite. so kalau kite nk orang tak sakitkan hati kite, sepatutnye kite kene la jage hati orang kn? biar orang pun jage hati kite..... pilihan lagi satu selain sound orang tu secara direct dan berkemungkinan besar akan menyakitkan hati orang tu balik ialah sound indirect....

the thing is.. sometimes dah berbuih mulut kite bagi hint kt orang tu yg kite sakit hati dgn die tapi die tak faham2 gk (or buat2 tak faham in certain cases). adakah patut kite cakap kt orang tu camni... "dah la aku dah lame sakit hati dgn ko, ko buat2 tak faham lak. lagi la aku sakit hati.." patut ke??

sakit hati....

macam mane kite nak cakap kt seseorang tu yg kite sakit hati dgn die?
a) cakap direct dgn die.. "weh, aku sakit hati dgn ko la sekarang.."
b) cakap tak direct.. bagi hint kt orang tu yg kite tgh sakit hati dgn die...

which one is better? cakap direct ke indirect? adakah kalau kite cakap direct kt orang tu akan menyakitkan hati die balik? mak saye selalu pesan, treat orang same macam kite nk orang treat kite. so kalau kite nk orang tak sakitkan hati kite, sepatutnye kite kene la jage hati orang kn? biar orang pun jage hati kite..... pilihan lagi satu selain sound orang tu secara direct dan berkemungkinan besar akan menyakitkan hati orang tu balik ialah sound indirect....

the thing is.. sometimes dah berbuih mulut kite bagi hint kt orang tu yg kite sakit hati dgn die tapi die tak faham2 gk (or buat2 tak faham in certain cases). adakah patut kite cakap kt orang tu camni... "dah la aku dah lame sakit hati dgn ko, ko buat2 tak faham lak. lagi la aku sakit hati.." patut ke??

Sunday, June 7, 2009

saye sayang........

along,saye dan adik
mak ayah....
adik n ayah
awie comey.....
angah, mak n awie
saye sayang pada Allah, pencipta yg Maha Berkuasa... sangat2 bersyukur kerana diciptakan sebagai manusia, sebaik2 kejadian... bukan sebagai seekor kucing atau lalat atau pun ape2 sajelah..... kerana itu saye perlu bersyukur.... try to be the best servant i can be.....
saye sayang pada mak ayah saye... tanpa diorang, takde la saye... kalau diorang takde, tak wujudlah saye yg nakal dan manje ni. sebab tu la saye cube sedaye upaye jadi anak yg taat, yg ikut cakap diorang.. saye cube gk utk tak bli psp yg saye idam2kan tu sebab mak tak bagi bli..huhuhu...
saye sayang kakak2 saye yg berkongsi name depan dgn saye.. terime kasih sebab sudi berkongsi name azimatul yg best ni dgn saye... walaupun kakak2 saye tu kadang2 annoys me (especially bile mereke dah membebel ) dan kadang2 mereke garang semacam, dan kadang2 sibling rivalry timbul bile salah sorang dari kami dapat something and the rest of us didnt get it... tapi.. hakikatnye yg nyate mereke tetap kakak sedarah sedaging dgn saye. walaupun rupe kami definitely tak same langsung, and all our differences... saye tetap sayang mereke sebab mereke la tempat saye nk membebel, tempat saye meluahkan perasaan, tempat saye bergosip dan bercerite... kalau diorang takde sape nak belanje saye, sape nk masak utk saye kalau mak takde kt rumah, sape nk manjekan saye.....
saye sayang adik2 lelaki saye... kenape adik2 lelaki je yg saye sayang? sebab saye takde adik perempuan..... kenape saye sayang adik2 saye? sebab kalau saye bosan saye g main dgn diorang, saye bercerite dgn diorang walaupun selalu diorang tak faham ape yg saye cerite.... kalau saye balik rumah, orang yg setia tunggu saye balik mesti adik saye yg comey, awie.... kalau saye balik orang yg paling excited nk bercerite pasal hari die mesti adik saye yg konon2 hensem tu, irsyad.. dan kalau saye nak buat nakal kt rumah mesti saye ajak adik2 saye join sekali (ade la geng kene marah nanti..;p) dan yg paling penting, kenape saye sayang adik2 saye.. simply because they're my brothers....
the reason why i write this post is because saye rindu dekat mak ayah adik2 saye. rindu nk dengar mak membebel suruh buat kerje, rindu nk dengar ayah sakat mak, rindu nk bergurau and dengar ketawe awie, rindu nk dengar irsyad dan fakta kereta die.... huhu.. bile la diorang nk balik nih......

saye sayang........

along,saye dan adik
mak ayah....
adik n ayah
awie comey.....
angah, mak n awie
saye sayang pada Allah, pencipta yg Maha Berkuasa... sangat2 bersyukur kerana diciptakan sebagai manusia, sebaik2 kejadian... bukan sebagai seekor kucing atau lalat atau pun ape2 sajelah..... kerana itu saye perlu bersyukur.... try to be the best servant i can be.....
saye sayang pada mak ayah saye... tanpa diorang, takde la saye... kalau diorang takde, tak wujudlah saye yg nakal dan manje ni. sebab tu la saye cube sedaye upaye jadi anak yg taat, yg ikut cakap diorang.. saye cube gk utk tak bli psp yg saye idam2kan tu sebab mak tak bagi bli..huhuhu...
saye sayang kakak2 saye yg berkongsi name depan dgn saye.. terime kasih sebab sudi berkongsi name azimatul yg best ni dgn saye... walaupun kakak2 saye tu kadang2 annoys me (especially bile mereke dah membebel ) dan kadang2 mereke garang semacam, dan kadang2 sibling rivalry timbul bile salah sorang dari kami dapat something and the rest of us didnt get it... tapi.. hakikatnye yg nyate mereke tetap kakak sedarah sedaging dgn saye. walaupun rupe kami definitely tak same langsung, and all our differences... saye tetap sayang mereke sebab mereke la tempat saye nk membebel, tempat saye meluahkan perasaan, tempat saye bergosip dan bercerite... kalau diorang takde sape nak belanje saye, sape nk masak utk saye kalau mak takde kt rumah, sape nk manjekan saye.....
saye sayang adik2 lelaki saye... kenape adik2 lelaki je yg saye sayang? sebab saye takde adik perempuan..... kenape saye sayang adik2 saye? sebab kalau saye bosan saye g main dgn diorang, saye bercerite dgn diorang walaupun selalu diorang tak faham ape yg saye cerite.... kalau saye balik rumah, orang yg setia tunggu saye balik mesti adik saye yg comey, awie.... kalau saye balik orang yg paling excited nk bercerite pasal hari die mesti adik saye yg konon2 hensem tu, irsyad.. dan kalau saye nak buat nakal kt rumah mesti saye ajak adik2 saye join sekali (ade la geng kene marah nanti..;p) dan yg paling penting, kenape saye sayang adik2 saye.. simply because they're my brothers....
the reason why i write this post is because saye rindu dekat mak ayah adik2 saye. rindu nk dengar mak membebel suruh buat kerje, rindu nk dengar ayah sakat mak, rindu nk bergurau and dengar ketawe awie, rindu nk dengar irsyad dan fakta kereta die.... huhu.. bile la diorang nk balik nih......

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

bile kegagalan melande......

bile kegagalan melande...semue bende yg aku buat tak jadi, kalau jadi pun macam hidup segan mati tak mau jer..... nk belajar baru bukak buku dah tertidur, nk g tgk terminator salvation takde teman, nk g beli psp semua orang menghalang, nk jadikan hari ni lagi baik dari semalam macam hari ni lagi teruk je...... nak2 lak baru fail kuiz, sket je lagi nak lulus. kebengangan dan ketensenan melande jiwe raga yg selame ni jarang fail kuiz tetibe fail.
kegagalan menyebabkan aku berfikir... adakah aku deserved these failures? adakah aku tak cukup effort utk mengelakkan kegagalan tu? adakah aku tak cukup willpower for me to struggle, to avoid failure? adakah aku tak cukup motivasi, sokongan moral, support system dari family and close friends utk terus berjaye? or is it that my 'time' is over and now what's left for me is failure?
itulah.... pemikiran negatif aku berjaye bermaharajalela kt dlm kepale otak aku. urghh.. kadang2 penat jugak aku berfikiran positif, lagi2 kalau keadaan sekeliling memang tak kondusif langsung utk aku berfikiran positif. tapi bile dah negatif tu, aku akan terfikir balik, ape gune kite berfikiran negatif, bukannye boleh ubah keadaan pun. bukannye boleh tambahkan markah aku jadi lulus pun. bukannye boleh jadikan aku semakin rajin pun. things will not get better if i think negatively.
then i start to think positively.... ala, baru gagal satu kuiz. kuiz lain ade lagi.... lagipun bile lagi nk gagal kalu bukan skarang.. pergh, bunyi cam alasan utk menutup kegagalan kan? but it's better than always thinking that you're a failure now and forever. lagi elok daripada asyik berfikir satu2nye yg kite layak adalah kegagalan. failing once doesnt mean you're a failure for life. kalau tak merase kegagalan maknenye takde gune la kejayaan tu. 
right now, i'm getting over my failure. kegagalan buatkan kite berfikir, buatkan kite lebih berusaha, buatkan kite lebih bertekad utk mencari kejayaan, buatkan kite lebih tabah menghadapi halangan, buatkan kite lebih menghargai kejayaan yg kite bakal dapat. for that, i'm really grateful for all the failures i 'achieve'. kuz without it, aku takkan sedar yg aku takkan selame2nye berada di atas, aku takkan jadi lebih berusaha, aku takkan jadi aku yg lebih baik.

bile kegagalan melande......

bile kegagalan melande...semue bende yg aku buat tak jadi, kalau jadi pun macam hidup segan mati tak mau jer..... nk belajar baru bukak buku dah tertidur, nk g tgk terminator salvation takde teman, nk g beli psp semua orang menghalang, nk jadikan hari ni lagi baik dari semalam macam hari ni lagi teruk je...... nak2 lak baru fail kuiz, sket je lagi nak lulus. kebengangan dan ketensenan melande jiwe raga yg selame ni jarang fail kuiz tetibe fail.
kegagalan menyebabkan aku berfikir... adakah aku deserved these failures? adakah aku tak cukup effort utk mengelakkan kegagalan tu? adakah aku tak cukup willpower for me to struggle, to avoid failure? adakah aku tak cukup motivasi, sokongan moral, support system dari family and close friends utk terus berjaye? or is it that my 'time' is over and now what's left for me is failure?
itulah.... pemikiran negatif aku berjaye bermaharajalela kt dlm kepale otak aku. urghh.. kadang2 penat jugak aku berfikiran positif, lagi2 kalau keadaan sekeliling memang tak kondusif langsung utk aku berfikiran positif. tapi bile dah negatif tu, aku akan terfikir balik, ape gune kite berfikiran negatif, bukannye boleh ubah keadaan pun. bukannye boleh tambahkan markah aku jadi lulus pun. bukannye boleh jadikan aku semakin rajin pun. things will not get better if i think negatively.
then i start to think positively.... ala, baru gagal satu kuiz. kuiz lain ade lagi.... lagipun bile lagi nk gagal kalu bukan skarang.. pergh, bunyi cam alasan utk menutup kegagalan kan? but it's better than always thinking that you're a failure now and forever. lagi elok daripada asyik berfikir satu2nye yg kite layak adalah kegagalan. failing once doesnt mean you're a failure for life. kalau tak merase kegagalan maknenye takde gune la kejayaan tu. 
right now, i'm getting over my failure. kegagalan buatkan kite berfikir, buatkan kite lebih berusaha, buatkan kite lebih bertekad utk mencari kejayaan, buatkan kite lebih tabah menghadapi halangan, buatkan kite lebih menghargai kejayaan yg kite bakal dapat. for that, i'm really grateful for all the failures i 'achieve'. kuz without it, aku takkan sedar yg aku takkan selame2nye berada di atas, aku takkan jadi lebih berusaha, aku takkan jadi aku yg lebih baik.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

dari kuala ke hulu.......

bulan ni dah masuk lebih kurang 3 bulan kitorang pindah rumah...dari tpg ke kajang. dari kuala langat ke hulu langat.... there's been significant changes in our lives prior to moving to our new home. mule2 skali kawasan perumahan tu... me and my family dah 10 thn tinggal kt telok.... yg mane kitorang dah banyak kawan kt situ (though aku tak rapat langsung dgn diorang...at least we know each other..better than tak kenal langsung kn...hehehe), takat jalan kt situ pejam mate je blh sampai.....jalan kt mane2 pun semue orang kenal.... aku sekolah kt situ,kadang2 terserempak dgn cikgu2.... in short, kitorang dah mengenali dan dikenali orang kt situlah.... then all of sudden we move to a new place where we dont know anyone there.... dah la banyak anjing kt situ (huhuhuhu takot....) it's really a life changing situation... 
another thing yg berubah is the weather....mmg la telok dgn kajang is not that far, still dlm selangor,malaysia but it's different. for one thing, telok panglima garang dekat dgn laut and kajang is closer to gunung ganang and all.....but i think the weather in kajang ni same mcm kt uia... kalau panas, panas yg teramat, kalau sejuk.....sejuk la sangat. it's one thing i need to adapt to....
even though banyak perubahan yg kitorang sekeluarga alami tapi semua perkara ade hikmahnye kan? at least aku dapat la gak tukar environment..asyik dok kt telok yg penuh dgn asap2 dari kilang je, mane2 jalan rase cam kt jakarta or hanoi or bangladesh je.... sekali sekale nak gk rase mcm kt malaysia kan, nk gk jalan2 dikelilingi orang melayu cina india...hehehe.....
pastu lg dekat dgn uia....leh balik selalu (yeay!!!) rumah baru lg besar...blh la mak tanam jagung,ubi,serai,pandan,dll tanaman yg dulunye takleh tanam kt rumah telok sebab tak cukup ruang (one thing yg mak suke..tanam2)...blh la awie main bola kt tpei rumah tanpa mak jerit2 sebab takut nanti kene pasu bunga die..... blh la adik tukar mindsetting die, expand his outlook on life, takla stuck kt pemikiran lame die je.... banyak lagi la kot hikmahnye yg blom aku fikir lagi.....
in all, it's sad to move from a place where you grow up, make friends and have fun but it's intriguing and fun to just try new things kan...lagipun kite kene la bersedie utk terima benda baru.... bersedia untuk tidak bersedia.......

dari kuala ke hulu.......

bulan ni dah masuk lebih kurang 3 bulan kitorang pindah rumah...dari tpg ke kajang. dari kuala langat ke hulu langat.... there's been significant changes in our lives prior to moving to our new home. mule2 skali kawasan perumahan tu... me and my family dah 10 thn tinggal kt telok.... yg mane kitorang dah banyak kawan kt situ (though aku tak rapat langsung dgn diorang...at least we know each other..better than tak kenal langsung kn...hehehe), takat jalan kt situ pejam mate je blh sampai.....jalan kt mane2 pun semue orang kenal.... aku sekolah kt situ,kadang2 terserempak dgn cikgu2.... in short, kitorang dah mengenali dan dikenali orang kt situlah.... then all of sudden we move to a new place where we dont know anyone there.... dah la banyak anjing kt situ (huhuhuhu takot....) it's really a life changing situation... 
another thing yg berubah is the weather....mmg la telok dgn kajang is not that far, still dlm selangor,malaysia but it's different. for one thing, telok panglima garang dekat dgn laut and kajang is closer to gunung ganang and all.....but i think the weather in kajang ni same mcm kt uia... kalau panas, panas yg teramat, kalau sejuk.....sejuk la sangat. it's one thing i need to adapt to....
even though banyak perubahan yg kitorang sekeluarga alami tapi semua perkara ade hikmahnye kan? at least aku dapat la gak tukar environment..asyik dok kt telok yg penuh dgn asap2 dari kilang je, mane2 jalan rase cam kt jakarta or hanoi or bangladesh je.... sekali sekale nak gk rase mcm kt malaysia kan, nk gk jalan2 dikelilingi orang melayu cina india...hehehe.....
pastu lg dekat dgn uia....leh balik selalu (yeay!!!) rumah baru lg besar...blh la mak tanam jagung,ubi,serai,pandan,dll tanaman yg dulunye takleh tanam kt rumah telok sebab tak cukup ruang (one thing yg mak suke..tanam2)...blh la awie main bola kt tpei rumah tanpa mak jerit2 sebab takut nanti kene pasu bunga die..... blh la adik tukar mindsetting die, expand his outlook on life, takla stuck kt pemikiran lame die je.... banyak lagi la kot hikmahnye yg blom aku fikir lagi.....
in all, it's sad to move from a place where you grow up, make friends and have fun but it's intriguing and fun to just try new things kan...lagipun kite kene la bersedie utk terima benda baru.... bersedia untuk tidak bersedia.......

Sunday, April 19, 2009

what should i do....or feel(in this case)....

what should one feel if...
one had a crush on someone one knows from school.and usually met him at school. and one notice that guy looks at her when she's not looking. but then one suppressed that feeling and time goes by and that guy has a girfriend and looks happy. but still that guy looks at her sometime.
what should one think,feel, do???
do nothing as if nothing ever happen? maybe.....

what should i do....or feel(in this case)....

what should one feel if...
one had a crush on someone one knows from school.and usually met him at school. and one notice that guy looks at her when she's not looking. but then one suppressed that feeling and time goes by and that guy has a girfriend and looks happy. but still that guy looks at her sometime.
what should one think,feel, do???
do nothing as if nothing ever happen? maybe.....

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

addicted to facebook....

sadly, i would like to announce i'm addicted to internet and especially facebook....
and it's affecting my exams..... just realized that my carry mark for this sem is the worse (for all subjects i'm taking). it's seems impossible for me to get even an a- with this kind of marks....
~sigh~ i hate myself right now sebab lupe diri, lupe priorities as a student, lupe responsibilities utk dptkan yg terbaik, lupe misi dan visi sendiri for this sem.....
tapi nk wat camner.. i'm already halfway through my finals.... and i cant turn back the time. skrg aku kene amek pengajaran drpd sem ni... next sem, i'll try to refocus my priorities back, try to maintain and upgrade my pointer (takot duit scholar kene tarik..hehehe).
okeh.... i need to sleep now kuz tomorrow's exam!!! best of luck to me!!

addicted to facebook....

sadly, i would like to announce i'm addicted to internet and especially facebook....
and it's affecting my exams..... just realized that my carry mark for this sem is the worse (for all subjects i'm taking). it's seems impossible for me to get even an a- with this kind of marks....
~sigh~ i hate myself right now sebab lupe diri, lupe priorities as a student, lupe responsibilities utk dptkan yg terbaik, lupe misi dan visi sendiri for this sem.....
tapi nk wat camner.. i'm already halfway through my finals.... and i cant turn back the time. skrg aku kene amek pengajaran drpd sem ni... next sem, i'll try to refocus my priorities back, try to maintain and upgrade my pointer (takot duit scholar kene tarik..hehehe).
okeh.... i need to sleep now kuz tomorrow's exam!!! best of luck to me!!

Monday, April 6, 2009

that handsome man i was gushing about....

that handsome man i was gushing about....

finals.......

this sem is the most depressing final exams i ever had (setakat ni lah..) just done two papers and 4 more to go. bile habis je jawab paper marketing tadi, rase macam satu beban yg sangat berat dah diangkat dari bahu aku. ringan sikit. but there's more daunting challenge ahead... cost management. one of the most difficult subjects i've ever take (apart from physics, chemistry and add maths at skool dulu). and i've got lebih kurang 3 hari je untuk revise all those things plus another paper to study gak. i think i'm going crazy prior to this paper.
and the sad thing is i still have time to go online, layan facebook and even writing this blog when all other students are burning the midnight oil to study. if there's an award for the laziest student ever...well, you have found the perfect candidate. hehehehe..... that is something my mom will not be proud of. and certainly not a good example for my equally lazy lil' brother who often look up to me. he'll have to find a better role model. heheheh......
and currently, amidst all these exam chaos and all, i still have time to be obsessed with dishy, hot handsome actors. hahaha!!! currently i'm obsessed with looking at my favorite vampire robert pattinson a.k.a edward cullen. how come a person have such a haunting gaze? and also the hugo boss model, jonathan rhys meyers. oh.so.handsome. it's all i can say about them.hehehe.i better stop before i puke sebab geli dgn diri sendiri. ciao~

finals.......

this sem is the most depressing final exams i ever had (setakat ni lah..) just done two papers and 4 more to go. bile habis je jawab paper marketing tadi, rase macam satu beban yg sangat berat dah diangkat dari bahu aku. ringan sikit. but there's more daunting challenge ahead... cost management. one of the most difficult subjects i've ever take (apart from physics, chemistry and add maths at skool dulu). and i've got lebih kurang 3 hari je untuk revise all those things plus another paper to study gak. i think i'm going crazy prior to this paper.
and the sad thing is i still have time to go online, layan facebook and even writing this blog when all other students are burning the midnight oil to study. if there's an award for the laziest student ever...well, you have found the perfect candidate. hehehehe..... that is something my mom will not be proud of. and certainly not a good example for my equally lazy lil' brother who often look up to me. he'll have to find a better role model. heheheh......
and currently, amidst all these exam chaos and all, i still have time to be obsessed with dishy, hot handsome actors. hahaha!!! currently i'm obsessed with looking at my favorite vampire robert pattinson a.k.a edward cullen. how come a person have such a haunting gaze? and also the hugo boss model, jonathan rhys meyers. oh.so.handsome. it's all i can say about them.hehehe.i better stop before i puke sebab geli dgn diri sendiri. ciao~

Saturday, March 21, 2009

just my thoughts....

quite a day...tadi ade final presentation for my subject..and it's quite important for my cgpa.... we're so anxious bout how we'll turn out... but i think we did okay.....
and i'm suppose to have a group discussion tonight and one thing that pissed me is that it's cancelled.last minute. bcuz one member's missing. damn it. i was looking ofrward to do it kuz i can forget about it and do other things...(like study for my finals..)
urghh...sakit hati. but i try to keep my cool.... sejak2 ni ade je bende yg menyakitkan hati aku. maybe for others it may seem like it's no big deal, but for me it's still pisses me..... sometimes aku rase orang2 sekeliling aku anggap aku macam takde perasaan.. they can do anything they like and dont have to warry about waht i might feel. it's like aku ni mcm tunggul pun ade. bile aku ckp aku marah... they all said relax la... it's no biggie.. yeah right..... cube la that exact same thing happens to them, they'll be mad as hell right???
i just dont understand it.... it's like they're allowed to voice out their feelings and i'm not. bile aku voice out my feelings, i've been branded as emotional. duh... i'm only a human kay??mesti la kene ade hati dan perasaan.....

just my thoughts....

quite a day...tadi ade final presentation for my subject..and it's quite important for my cgpa.... we're so anxious bout how we'll turn out... but i think we did okay.....
and i'm suppose to have a group discussion tonight and one thing that pissed me is that it's cancelled.last minute. bcuz one member's missing. damn it. i was looking ofrward to do it kuz i can forget about it and do other things...(like study for my finals..)
urghh...sakit hati. but i try to keep my cool.... sejak2 ni ade je bende yg menyakitkan hati aku. maybe for others it may seem like it's no big deal, but for me it's still pisses me..... sometimes aku rase orang2 sekeliling aku anggap aku macam takde perasaan.. they can do anything they like and dont have to warry about waht i might feel. it's like aku ni mcm tunggul pun ade. bile aku ckp aku marah... they all said relax la... it's no biggie.. yeah right..... cube la that exact same thing happens to them, they'll be mad as hell right???
i just dont understand it.... it's like they're allowed to voice out their feelings and i'm not. bile aku voice out my feelings, i've been branded as emotional. duh... i'm only a human kay??mesti la kene ade hati dan perasaan.....

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

my friend's funny prediction...(shall i say premonition??)

my bestie told me one night, while we're having our dinner. she asked what will i do if one day my crush ask me out? i said i'll ask if his gf ade ke tak, and if his gf will get mad or not... then my bestie asked again, what will i do if he confess to me that he likes me? i said i'll make a confused face before asking "are you sure?" 
then she ask me again, will i accepts him if he ask me to be his gf? of course i laugh! that sounds ridiculous to me. all i know that boy is happy with his current gf.. my bestie ask me, consider that they (my crush and his gf ) have broken up.. jawapan aku senang je... tgk la keadaan camne.. kalau i still like him, then it's fine lah kot. kalau tak, sorry to break your heartlah jawapnye.
the funny thing is, my bestie is so convinced that what she had asked me will come true. said her instinct tell her so.. and she's very confident about it. her premonition is that one day, in 3 years time (waktu kitorang still undergraduate lg) he'll confess to me.... nasib baik kitorang kt kafe, kalau kt bilik dah jth katil kot aku gelak....
i know my bestie loves me and wants the best for me and wants me to be happy, tapi there's no need for her to have that kind of prediction. it's just funny... semms not possible at all to me... tapi who knows what will happen in the future. mane la tau kn.....
and that premonition leads us to do something ridiculous last night. we're cyber-stalking someone... i mean not actually cyber-stalking.. let's just say kitoran buat sikit edisi siasat pasal my crush's fs page.. (again!!).. i was so convinced that they're really have something going on but my besties think otherwise. so we're doing our investigation and found no evidence about my belief (that they have something). my besties said that they're just bestfriends or kakak angkat-adik angkat kinda relationship (kuz she's older than him...).....
anyway, i dont wanna think about all that stuff right now... kuz i've got many things to think!!!
cost management, leadership, semue lahh!!!! 
hope i'm still alive and sane by the time i've got time to post somethnig here....

my friend's funny prediction...(shall i say premonition??)

my bestie told me one night, while we're having our dinner. she asked what will i do if one day my crush ask me out? i said i'll ask if his gf ade ke tak, and if his gf will get mad or not... then my bestie asked again, what will i do if he confess to me that he likes me? i said i'll make a confused face before asking "are you sure?" 
then she ask me again, will i accepts him if he ask me to be his gf? of course i laugh! that sounds ridiculous to me. all i know that boy is happy with his current gf.. my bestie ask me, consider that they (my crush and his gf ) have broken up.. jawapan aku senang je... tgk la keadaan camne.. kalau i still like him, then it's fine lah kot. kalau tak, sorry to break your heartlah jawapnye.
the funny thing is, my bestie is so convinced that what she had asked me will come true. said her instinct tell her so.. and she's very confident about it. her premonition is that one day, in 3 years time (waktu kitorang still undergraduate lg) he'll confess to me.... nasib baik kitorang kt kafe, kalau kt bilik dah jth katil kot aku gelak....
i know my bestie loves me and wants the best for me and wants me to be happy, tapi there's no need for her to have that kind of prediction. it's just funny... semms not possible at all to me... tapi who knows what will happen in the future. mane la tau kn.....
and that premonition leads us to do something ridiculous last night. we're cyber-stalking someone... i mean not actually cyber-stalking.. let's just say kitoran buat sikit edisi siasat pasal my crush's fs page.. (again!!).. i was so convinced that they're really have something going on but my besties think otherwise. so we're doing our investigation and found no evidence about my belief (that they have something). my besties said that they're just bestfriends or kakak angkat-adik angkat kinda relationship (kuz she's older than him...).....
anyway, i dont wanna think about all that stuff right now... kuz i've got many things to think!!!
cost management, leadership, semue lahh!!!! 
hope i'm still alive and sane by the time i've got time to post somethnig here....

Monday, March 16, 2009

Life's like a tv drama......

baru2 ni, there's a quite close friend of mine mengadu about her probs. her former bestfriend from matriculation has been spreading rumors and bad stories about her.... she's been having problems with my friend's sis for some times now, and they havent been good ever since.
hearing her stories make me think...wow...it's like some kind of drama i see on tv...complete dgn rumors, betrayal stories..... people taking sides... pergh... nasib baik la aku ni acocunting students and xde bakat langsung dlm film-making or script-writing.... kalo tak mesti dah lame aku wat film based on this true stories....
but i learnt some lessons from my friend's experience.....when we faced some hardships..that's the time we'll know our true friends are....those who stick with you no matters what kind of bad stories they heard about you...no matter how much people said bad things about you...they still believe in you.. and we'll know who's just friends when we're havent got any problems...kawan time senang je....
another lessons i learnt is jgn panik and acting rash... what i mean is that bile someone spread bad rumors about you..and the rumors are definitely not true at all.... just let them be. i mean kalau kite tak salah tak payah la nak serang orang yg spread rumors tu... it makes us looks like the guilty one.macam rumors tu is true....just let it be.bile orang dah penat buat cerite pasal kite diorang akan berhenti.
i wonder... kenape mesti nk bermusuh2an dgn kawan sendiri.they used to be classmates, even room mates....tak rase sayang ke bile friendship yg dah brape thn jd sie2 cmtu je..??
that makes me wanna resolve something...i'll try my best to appreciate my friendship with my friends...and be there for them, susah dan senang..and hope that they'll do the same for me.

Life's like a tv drama......

baru2 ni, there's a quite close friend of mine mengadu about her probs. her former bestfriend from matriculation has been spreading rumors and bad stories about her.... she's been having problems with my friend's sis for some times now, and they havent been good ever since.
hearing her stories make me think...wow...it's like some kind of drama i see on tv...complete dgn rumors, betrayal stories..... people taking sides... pergh... nasib baik la aku ni acocunting students and xde bakat langsung dlm film-making or script-writing.... kalo tak mesti dah lame aku wat film based on this true stories....
but i learnt some lessons from my friend's experience.....when we faced some hardships..that's the time we'll know our true friends are....those who stick with you no matters what kind of bad stories they heard about you...no matter how much people said bad things about you...they still believe in you.. and we'll know who's just friends when we're havent got any problems...kawan time senang je....
another lessons i learnt is jgn panik and acting rash... what i mean is that bile someone spread bad rumors about you..and the rumors are definitely not true at all.... just let them be. i mean kalau kite tak salah tak payah la nak serang orang yg spread rumors tu... it makes us looks like the guilty one.macam rumors tu is true....just let it be.bile orang dah penat buat cerite pasal kite diorang akan berhenti.
i wonder... kenape mesti nk bermusuh2an dgn kawan sendiri.they used to be classmates, even room mates....tak rase sayang ke bile friendship yg dah brape thn jd sie2 cmtu je..??
that makes me wanna resolve something...i'll try my best to appreciate my friendship with my friends...and be there for them, susah dan senang..and hope that they'll do the same for me.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

cyberstalking????

i did something i think i shouldnt do...... though it's not ethically and morally wrong but i still think it's not good for me..... what i did is i view my crush's gf fs page. it sounds harmless, isn't it? but after doing it i feel horrible. damn i feel jealous. i shouldnt be jealous. she's his gf she can be lovey dovey to him..... huhuhuhuu...... tp aku still rase cemburu. i need to get over him,soon.
actually, i've tried every possible ways i could think of. dah try sibukkan diri dgn things yg takde kaitan dgn that guy... dah try isi mase lapang dgn things i really like... i've even try to like other guy tapi.....
now i decide to just let go.takyah pikir pape. numb my feelings for him. let time heals my wounds. open up my mind to new things, new possibilities. maybe i'll find someone better this time..... 

cyberstalking????

i did something i think i shouldnt do...... though it's not ethically and morally wrong but i still think it's not good for me..... what i did is i view my crush's gf fs page. it sounds harmless, isn't it? but after doing it i feel horrible. damn i feel jealous. i shouldnt be jealous. she's his gf she can be lovey dovey to him..... huhuhuhuu...... tp aku still rase cemburu. i need to get over him,soon.
actually, i've tried every possible ways i could think of. dah try sibukkan diri dgn things yg takde kaitan dgn that guy... dah try isi mase lapang dgn things i really like... i've even try to like other guy tapi.....
now i decide to just let go.takyah pikir pape. numb my feelings for him. let time heals my wounds. open up my mind to new things, new possibilities. maybe i'll find someone better this time..... 

Sunday, March 8, 2009

just moved.....

haha....my feelings r mixed right now.... i'm moving to a new place. excited tapi rase sedih plak tinggalkn tempat aku m'besar. anxious abt changes in my life.... we've learn new things here.. learn to adapt to the new environment here. but every clouds has silver linings, setiap ape yg b'laku pasti ade hikmahnye... maybe something good will come out from our move here.
i've just realize, mase tgh packing barang  that my room was a junkyard. almost everything ade dalam bilik aku.. from cutleries to sandals even a dead cockroach!! pening aku nk kemas. in the end aku divide all my thing into throw away bags and keep it bags. setel kerje. hehehe.....
esok satu lagi kerje menanti. kemas balik brg2...huhuu... i hate it. i'm a naturally messy person no matter how much effort i take, me and my things still in a mess... what to do??
anyway, since there's a lot of thing to do... i decided to take one step at a time. maybe start susun furniture, then, wardrobe...books..... and whatever that needs my attention.

just moved.....

haha....my feelings r mixed right now.... i'm moving to a new place. excited tapi rase sedih plak tinggalkn tempat aku m'besar. anxious abt changes in my life.... we've learn new things here.. learn to adapt to the new environment here. but every clouds has silver linings, setiap ape yg b'laku pasti ade hikmahnye... maybe something good will come out from our move here.
i've just realize, mase tgh packing barang  that my room was a junkyard. almost everything ade dalam bilik aku.. from cutleries to sandals even a dead cockroach!! pening aku nk kemas. in the end aku divide all my thing into throw away bags and keep it bags. setel kerje. hehehe.....
esok satu lagi kerje menanti. kemas balik brg2...huhuu... i hate it. i'm a naturally messy person no matter how much effort i take, me and my things still in a mess... what to do??
anyway, since there's a lot of thing to do... i decided to take one step at a time. maybe start susun furniture, then, wardrobe...books..... and whatever that needs my attention.

Friday, March 6, 2009

public transportation.......

public transportation..something that are essential for me but at the same time i just dreaded it..
especially bas. tak faham betul dgn bus service kt malaysia ni. diorang takde jadual perjalanan ke ape? jalan ikut suka hati je.... sempat minum2 sedangkan berbaris2 orang tunggu nak naik bas.. ceh... and another thing i really want to complain.... malaysians really lose their manners when boarding public transportation. pintu bas terbukak je berpusu2 org berebut nak naik.. chill man...! bas kosong lg... kalau pun x dpt naik, kt belakang tu berlambak bas lagi. lagi2 aku sakit hati dengan manusia2 yg mude remaja gagah perkasa ni... tak gentleman langsung. ade ke patut berebut naik bas dengan makcik2 tue, dengan kanak2, dengan budak2 pompuan?? langsung tak gagah aku tengok. selfish btol aku tengok.
if i wanna have a political career, i will want to become tansportation minister. aku nak rombak balik sistem pengangkutan kt m'sia.... biar jd lebih efisien. buat line ketapi laju dari JB ke perlis... macam line shinkansen kat jepun nun. jadi takyah la susah2 nak tggu bas yang tak gerak2 or berebut2 naik bas sampai hampir mati lemas tersepit kene himpit orang ke.........
i really do hope public transport in malaysia will improve....

public transportation.......

public transportation..something that are essential for me but at the same time i just dreaded it..
especially bas. tak faham betul dgn bus service kt malaysia ni. diorang takde jadual perjalanan ke ape? jalan ikut suka hati je.... sempat minum2 sedangkan berbaris2 orang tunggu nak naik bas.. ceh... and another thing i really want to complain.... malaysians really lose their manners when boarding public transportation. pintu bas terbukak je berpusu2 org berebut nak naik.. chill man...! bas kosong lg... kalau pun x dpt naik, kt belakang tu berlambak bas lagi. lagi2 aku sakit hati dengan manusia2 yg mude remaja gagah perkasa ni... tak gentleman langsung. ade ke patut berebut naik bas dengan makcik2 tue, dengan kanak2, dengan budak2 pompuan?? langsung tak gagah aku tengok. selfish btol aku tengok.
if i wanna have a political career, i will want to become tansportation minister. aku nak rombak balik sistem pengangkutan kt m'sia.... biar jd lebih efisien. buat line ketapi laju dari JB ke perlis... macam line shinkansen kat jepun nun. jadi takyah la susah2 nak tggu bas yang tak gerak2 or berebut2 naik bas sampai hampir mati lemas tersepit kene himpit orang ke.........
i really do hope public transport in malaysia will improve....

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

what a busy week.....

this time of the sem dah datang..... the busy weeks. it's been a very damn busy 3 weeks for me now. cant wait for this week to end. i'm just wondering..... kenape bile kite xde kerje.. kite langsung takde kerje? bile satu kerje masuk je, yg lain2 pun ikut gak. it's like a domino effect. 1 work leads to another... and once kite dah busy, everyday after will be busy too. why oh why?

what a busy week.....

this time of the sem dah datang..... the busy weeks. it's been a very damn busy 3 weeks for me now. cant wait for this week to end. i'm just wondering..... kenape bile kite xde kerje.. kite langsung takde kerje? bile satu kerje masuk je, yg lain2 pun ikut gak. it's like a domino effect. 1 work leads to another... and once kite dah busy, everyday after will be busy too. why oh why?